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So, mom stopped by yesterday to get her mail. And that was it. I was here, albeit sick and unwilling, but here. T told her I was asleep, which I suppose is a good reason not to bother someone but if I were my kid I'da been back here in a heartbeat and flash of light. But then again, if I'da been my kid...we'll leave that alone...

So I listened to all of her voicemails and only ONCE (1 of 5 if you count just those...its been about 15 since I talked to her) before she came by did she call and NOT want something other than my general well being. These are the things that make me not want to talk to her. And I know these things aren't very big requests but I just want her to call me sometime, just to call. Just to talk. Just for anything other than something she wants me to do. Has she seen the gas crisis??? And to stop with the bribes of groceries. It doesn't work anymore. I don't care if I'm starving, I'm not asking her.

Speaking of which, I really need to quit the job I have now and find another. I know it doesn't really sound like it makes sense, but I go to this place once a week. I make less than $300/month working there and that's totally unacceptable. I could pressure the guy into giving me more work but honestly its in Cobb County and I really hate using the gas to go. I wanna be somewhere I can MARTA to if at all possible and even if it doesn't pay more I need more than once a week. Well, I don't need more days but I need more money. I don't know anyone other than something I'd love to do but aren't qualified (bartend, go-go dance) that would hire me for Friday-Monday so I need to see what's good with a Mon, Wed, Fri job. And for that, I'd need to not work where I currently do. *sigh*

I gotta stop watching The Girls Next Door. Makes me wanna try and date Hef...sure there's rules and stuff but do you see the stuff they get? But what do they hafta do to get it? Eww. I'm not blonde or white anyway. Is there a black Hef? Nah, still eww.

Anyway, so she leaves me a new voicemail today saying she was sorry for not coming back to see me and to call her and let her know how I'm feeling. Blech.

I don't wanna go to school tomorrow...why didn't I graduate? I don't like school! Maybe I don't like being off campus. It does kinda suck to have to travel there. But it always feel so good once I'm gone too. I'm all over the place again. What happened to that chick who knew what she wanted and how to get it and just did it? I left her in high school I guess. Oh well. There's a job opp in California after graduation as a technical director at Pixar. I think I'm gonna gor for it. We shall see.

G'Night.