I find myself at school trying to finish my homework before class every Tuesday. This is NOT good. I'm not going to be able to today. I haven't even read yet. What happened to me? When did I completely lose focus? How do I get it back? How does everyone else keep it?
I guess it all has to do with the fact that we have goals, so we have to push ourselves to get them done. I still have goals, but I can't seem to freakin focus on them at all. And I want to blame the fact that I can't on the tons of outside factors working my nerves daily, but I think I should just take responsibility for this one. I decided to read yesterday because I knew I was gonna be tired after I got done with my day on Sunday, but I didn't end up even trying to read until like 4am, mostly because I felt like complete crap all day. That is baaaaaad. So I said alright, I'll get up and go to school and do it there. Still, nothing. It's 45 min until class and I couldn't read AND bust out a 500 word paper if I tried. I know this one should be a wake up call and get me back on track, but we'll see. Maybe I should still try and just go to class a little late or something. I don't see it, and I'm tired of trying when I don't see the outcome doing anything for me.
You know what. I had a freak out for nothing. I just did the damn thing. Go me!
Still need to get on track though, period. Alright off the Culture and Cognition.
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I know this might sound crazy, but are you sure that you are truly doing something which you want to do.
*ducks*
I meant to answer this a looong time ago. I did have a flair up of wtf who is he, but then I thought about it. Nope. I know I'm not, and not in the least bit. But, it is a stepping stone. I get through this crap and I'll be able to do whatever I want, or at least something that makes me happy. So I put up with it, but it will be over soon.
Now if I had figured this out years ago I would've cut my losses and moved on, but its too late to quit now.
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