*sigh*

I actually have a lot to talk about tonight, but I don't even feel up to getting into any of it right now. Maybe tomorrow night. Maybe never. There really is a lot more going on with me than let on, and its kicking my ass at the moment.

There are really simple things that would make all of this easier, but I'm not going to get them without a fight it seems. I've been fighting for so long though; I'm tired. Not broken completely yet, just insanely tired. This is all supposed to be somewhere else and really good by now, but I need to make it happen. Being a fighter makes it hard to give up, and I wont quit, but sometimes we need vacations too. I wont get one, at least not for a while if I do this the way I am supposed to. Being a bum does not count as a vacation either, I still go hard, just on other things. Arrrrgh...I will get through this and life will be better and less complicated.

G'Night.