Stuff

So, I got up and got on the computer because I wanted to post something on facebook about the crafts I've been doing lately, and alas, the InterWebs pulled me in and I started looking at EVERYTHING else instead.

I've been making rosaries lately. Nope. I'm not Catholic. Why? Well I have a specific reason other than the fact that I just enjoy making things....mom and I decided to go to the Renaissance Fair this year, and we wanted to do it big, costumes and all. Well, I also decided to get mine before Halloween so I could get a couple of uses out of it. We headed to Hancock Fabrics and found some patterns and the one I really liked included this belt thingy. I did a little research and decided I wanted a rosary as a belt thingy. Well, I'd talked to my namesake about rosaries before and she informed me that they tended to be expensive, so I decided I would make one instead. I found Our Lady's Rosary Makers and got some wire and cord sets and a 3 in one jewelry tool from Wal-Mart and have been at it for a while now. After I made one, mom wanted one, so I made her one. Now I'm just making a bunch and adding them to my inventory of stuff. The kicker with OLRM is that you can't sell them because you bought the materials for so cheap, so whenever I DO start selling stuff I guess I'll just include one with the order or something. Yup. Weird.

I have also been crocheting a scarf. Yes, I know its getting to warm for scarves. The only reason I'm doing it is to get prepared for a bigger project I want to do later as a gift for someone. I figure I'd work out the learning on a scarf first. I was gonna do the scarf for myself, but my ghetto ass Wal-Mart didn't have enough skeins of the camouflage yarn that I wanted, to I found a different color and its going to be a gift for my guy instead. He wont wear it, but that's cool. I would keep it, but I don't need another scarf in the color I chose (which I chose because I didn't need a scarf in ANY of the colors available and I figured he would like the color I ended up at). I did find the camo yarn at another store though, and I'm thinking I may knit myself a scarf from that to learn how to knit as well (because I think I want my gift to be knitted instead of crocheted anyway). Ehh, We'll see what happens.

~~The net pulled me in AGAIN *sigh* ~~

I have still been writing poetry and deciding how much of myself I want to put out there. I'd like for other to read my stuff...its just that there's a line between creative and hire-able that I have been struggling not to blur for a while now. I don't really want my super creative side aired on facebook, since potential employers have become internet trolls (hey namesake, it IS a good word) I decided to separate my facebook persona from my twitter persona...but I honestly think now I may be too "me" to keep them apart. I love being me. I love being a well-educated, smart (they are two COMPLETELY different things), beautiful, classy young lady who'll use the word fuck liberally when allowed. People used to try and tell me that people who used curse words didn't have a large enough vocabulary to not use them. I say to them, BULLSHIT. There is NOTHING on the earth that I can say that will match the catharsis of just saying FUCK loudly. NOTHING. It doesn't exist. Try it. I dare you. FUCKING TRY IT.

Sorry, anyway, so I'd pretty much figured out that who I was on the inside wasn't really the type of person to get a corporate or really good, high paying job, but who I present on the outside hasn't been getting me anywhere lately either, and I'm more and more putting my own happiness over my financial success. I know its possible for both to happen, but because no one (including myself) knows if I'm the love child of Spike Lee and Quentin Tarantino or not, who know what'll happen? I can tell you one thing...NOTHING WILL HAPPEN IF I DON'T TRY.

So I'm trying. And deciding how much of "me" everyone gets to see.

Will be discussing this with Miss LeDega soon. She's doing a pretty awesome job of keeping stuff off the grid...but I kinda like being on the social network part of the grid. Its the best networking I personally can do. Grr.

G'Night.