*super sigh*

I've been through a lot this past week. I'm not going to go into to a lot of detail yet, or possibly ever, just know that my life could be going a HELL of a lot better right now. It could also be going a lot worse, so thank you Jesus for the good times.

The part that sucks though is the tough stuff distracts you away from the important or fun stuff. So, even though I know I have homework to do or sleep to be participating in, it doesn't happen the way I would like it too. Some would tell me to just do it or just go to bed. It's harder than that, okay. When you have a mind that runs off without you constantly its hard to focus on one task, even sleep. Anyway, it'll get better.

At least, I'll keep telling myself that no matter how many times I've been proven wrong and downright lied to myself.

I have to wonder, do these things happen to me, or go the way they do because of my decisions? I mean, sure I KNOW some of the stuff was because of a decision I've made, but seriously, was I meant to graduate from Tech? Not that I'm saying it should be easier if I was meant to do it, but really...should I have been going through ALL of the ish I've been through while being at this school? I did NOT want to go to school in GA. That idea was the farthest thing from my mind, but the price was right and the situation at the time made sense. I didn't wanna do it, but I was thinking about others at the time, and now I feel like I've screwed myself (rather the SHAFT has gotten me good). I'll have a great degree from a prestigious school, but all I found out was that I liked things that another school would have been better equipped to teach me. Oh well. Too late now.

I guess it boils down to something I was taught a long time ago. Your first instinct is usually the best one. I've been working on going by that first one for a loooong time, and it rarely fails.

Anyway, I did learn some interesting things about my family members. Blood isn't always thicker than water. And sometimes its so thick, it clouds one's judgment. Maybe that was the things that were introduced into the blood though, I'm still working that one out. I'll be aight though (lying to myself, as usual).

G'Night.